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I will
make my way through the maze either way, but will I learn
less if I walk it clinging to that thread already laid there
to take me out? Would a woman dare let go? Would a hero?
If they
set me on a lonely island, if they change my story and refigure
my face, what of it? In deviation begins liberation, it is
always from the unexpected that the most miraculous course
reveals itself.
I have
seen too many women, paralyzed by the fear of ever once appearing
different, mold themselves into precise china dolls. And in
the porcelain pulse of their lives the heart becomes a frozen
captive, spirit seizes up, unaccustomed to so much regulation,
and life itself becomes sustained on the smallest possible
motions of the breath...
Give
me instead the castle of aberration to dance through, the
temple of unorthodoxy to make my home in. Better to trust
in the unusual, better by a million times to embrace the unexpected
and discover in its reflection the delightful idiosyncrasies
of the self, the truest map to the labyrinths within...
by Anne Markel
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